Wow.
I can't believe this is actually happening. Honestly, when I left 18 months ago I never
really believed that the mission would end.
But here it is... ending. I don't
think it has truly hit me yet.
This week was truly filled with tender mercies. We had a miracle baptism on Sunday. There is a little boy who lives in our ward
and comes almost every week. His name is
A and his mom is a less active member.
However, his father is a non member and never was willing to sign to let
his son be baptized. Looking for a last
minute miracle, Hermana M and I visited them on Wednesday. We don't really know what happened, but the
father experienced the "mighty change of heart." He signed, and A was baptized on Sunday. The best part is that his dad also came to
church on Sunday to support the family.
His dad gave him one of those giant, wet, YOU JUST GOT BAPTIZED hugs that
I love so much and we heard him say "I have never felt so
proud." Hermano R (the dad) is now
taking the lessons and wants to continue going to church with his family. We anticipate that he will be baptized in
September. One of the greatest miracles
of my mission is seeing how The Lord works to soften hearts and change lives...
Including mine.
At this point in my mission I really feel like I understand
Ammon who, when speaking of his mission, said...
"I desire to dwell among this people for a time, yeah
and perhaps until the day I die."
I feel ya, Ammon.
Guatemala just seems like a part of who I am at this point. I love this people and I love the privilege
that I have been given to serve and love the Lamanites for 18 months. 18 months ago, you guys sent a scared,
scrawny white girl to Guatemala. I am
not the same I was before. Yes, I am
still Sierra. But I feel like I am a
better version of myself. I am closer to
the Lord. I am braver. I am happier.
And I am clean from the blood and sins of this generation. I have fought a good fight and done what I
can. I haven't been the perfect
missionary, but I have done the best that I can and thanks to the atonement of
Jesus Christ, that is enough. I have
learned the importance of obedience, and that includes being obedient to the
hardest part of the entire process... Coming home.
But President Markham told me "you have a great life
ahead of you. Trust in God and move
forward."
I guess that is true.
It would be wrong of me to spend 18 months telling people to trust in
God and do hard things if I myself were unwilling to do it. I trust that my Heavenly Father trusts me
enough to allow me to continue progressing in the real world. I know that He is preparing me to move on to
other things and I know that the work that I have done here will continue
forward. This is a great and marvelous
work. It is an eternal work, with
eternal blessings. I am so grateful that
I came and I look forward to the opportunity to continue seeking Christ
throughout my entire life.
Elder Uchtdorf, speaking about discipleship, said..,
"Being a disciple of Jesus Christ is not an effort of
once a week or once a day. It is an
effort of once and for all."
My discipleship will not end when I take off my
nametag. My conversion runs deep. I know that I am a true representative of
Jesus Christ. I know that He lives. I feel His love and His influence in my
life. I know that this is His work, to
bring to pass the eternal life of man.
God didn't need me to be here in Guatemala. But I needed Him. He taught me how to look for His hand, access
His mercy and rejoice in the cleansing and strengthening power of the
atonement. I have rejoiced in
Christ. I rejoice in Christ. And I will forever rejoice in Him. Discipleship is not a journey of 18 months,
it is a journey of a lifetime.
I am grateful for my Heavenly Father who sent me, not only
here to earth, but here to Guatemala. I
am grateful for my Savior, Jesus Christ who paid for my sins. I owe everything I am to Him, and He is
everything to me. I know who He is and I
know where to find Him. I am grateful
for my parents to have loved and supported me through the entire process. I am grateful for President and Hermana
Markham who serve as our parents and guides as we love and serve the people
here. I am grateful for Thomas S Monson
and the apostles. I am grateful that the
windows of heaven are continually opened.
I am grateful for the age change. I am grateful for my temple covenants.
I am grateful for my companions. I am
grateful for my friends, los chapines, here in Guatemala. I am grateful for my converts... They have
changed me more than I have changed them.
I think that one of the most important converts I have in my whole
mission is myself. I know that this
really is the kingdom of God here on the earth.
I am grateful for every second that I have spent here in Guatemala, but
more than anything I am grateful that God has been mindful of me a
"wanderer in a strange land."
Thank you for loving and supporting me while I have been
here. I love the mission, but more than
anything I love God and I know that He wants me to come home.
It has been a great adventure. I look forward to many more
to come.
I apologize in advance for being a weirdo... White people
make me anxious.
Les AMO!
See you.... Saturday.
Hermana Wise